One Good Year...

I hate being sick! I hate having a sore throat and ear aches and stuffy noses... i hate it all! but besides being sick all else is kosher for now. in the next month my life will fall together finally. i used the word FALL on purpose. had i said "come together" that might imply that i had a plan for the way things were going to turn out... but that's so not the case. i used the word FALL because things are literally going to drop from where they are now into a completely new place, and unfortunately i have put myself in the position to just let it happen without much say so. my lease is almost up, I'm almost out of money, i have no where else to live (but my moms), i have no job... isn't it amazing where you end up in a year. A year ago i was in school, i had a large sum of money from an inheritance, i was looking forward to so much for so long and now it's all washed away. gone to laziness, irresponsibility, and a lack maturity. it amazes me still, not a day goes by where i don't wake up and think... how the hell did i get here? and what the hell can i do to go back? maybe that's what keeps us going, the thought that we can still go back. OK, maybe i can't really go back, but i could be the me i was then. i could still be the girl i always thought i could be. Right...

PS: It's not about happily ever after, It's about happy right now! (and hoping you still get the happily ever after too)

LOVE!!!